New World Baby Order

Secretly thoughts form about having a child, I shiver at the thought. I personally don't have a problem with children, the whole "debacle" consists of the problems that surround the birth and the steps of raising a child. No.. this isn't a look forward into the near future, honestly I'm very far from having a child. Very far. I'll break down the reasons that frighten me and what can or can't possibly be done about it.

First Problem; Money
If you know me, you should know I'm not someone who always has a wad of hundreds in his pocket. I usually need to plan ahead of a paycheck in order to not screw myself over. I'm not in debt or anything,  my life financially just isn't doing me any favors. 

Now let's say I introduce a "Baby" into my current predicament.

Fuck..
I'd have to overhaul my entire life, The lifestyle I live now would not suffice for a baby. I could always take help from the Government, however not to be mean, but I'd feel ashamed of myself. I feel people should be able to provide for their family without help, unless you're a quadriplegic.. I can understand that. 
It's not impossible though, I myself am already working to overhaul my life. I'm slowly on track to becoming a law enforcement officer, which if I had that job I damn sure could provide for a child. I'm nearly positive if I learned I was having a kid in nine months, I'd already be graduating from the academy!

Problem 2: Defects
Out of the three main problems of having a child, this particular problem scares the living shit out of me. Don't get me wrong if I had a child with a defect I would cherish him or her as any child, but inside I would ponder how and why? I myself am a very healthy person, I'm just lazy and don't exercise much. So If my kid had problems I wouldn't understand why.

What can I do to prevent a defect from happening? Well nothing really, other than *not* pushing the woman bearing my child down stairs or making sure no drugs or alcohol enter her system. Everything should turn out peachy, unless I've strangely jinxed myself damning every kid I will have.. 

Problem 3: Being a Father
I personally haven't made all the best choices when it comes to school and career opportunities, yet I'm still young enough to change that. I want my kid to respect me and everyone else around him or her, I don't want a snotty kid with bad language and poor manners. 
I also wouldn't want my kid to resent me or his/her mother for whatever reason, I'd let him choose what he or she wants out of life and support them all the way through. 

What can I do to make sure this happens? 
I'd need to first off have a child with someone who stay happily married to me, second I'd need to step into high gear with becoming what I need to be now and third.. I just need to show my kid how much I love him or her no matter what and listen to their problems and needs.

Overall those are my main concerns, if you'd like to add your experience with kids or even things you're afraid of message me or leave me a comment. Let's talk about it.

If you rather not say anything at all.
Thanks for taking the time to read my rant.