When The Balloon String Goes Pop..

Tantalizing words smudged upon digital screens, Here we are embarking into the very thoughts I tongued around with the keys. I vomit more information on how writing intrigues me, rather than actually discussing a topic thoroughly in my head before releasing it. I always have a vivid imagination about.. Well just about anything and everything, Which I believe everyone should size up the things in front of them. When it comes to Blogging, I always wonder how many lives could be saved if people expressed more openly through blogs. People could really get the help they need, especially if people knew the true intent they held for the masses. Example; Dad "Did you read Billy's Blog?" Mom "Oh No, I haven't? What weird fascinations did he blog about this time?" Dad "Remember Jenny from the Block?" Mom "Oh Yes, What a sweet girl" Dad "Well apparently, Jenny's a bitch and he's thinking about taking actions into his own hands." Mom "Oh my.. Did he directly state that?" Dad "Of Course not Woman, He's not an idiot but indirectly he's asking for help through symbolism and faint foreshadowing of things to come." Sorry, Originally this wasn't in the original draft. I hope you get my point because I'm done explaining it.
Another thing.. I wished the world had social networking during the eighties; Not only would beyond sober things be posted constantly, Just imagine the Twitpics or Youtube Videos overlapped with all the crazy styles and things that happened back then...

I could go on and on about that topic, however, I am trying to catch up on a year of not blogging so the show must go on.

In my opinion, I always felt the world was spiraling into chaos. Slowly but Surely we as a people will deal with unusual dilemmas and sadly enough repeating threats from our history, War doesn't care if we demand Peace and Peace is too mellow to change anything. Not only that, I think the Icons for America's Youth is quite horrendous. As a people; We not only hope Donald Trump runs for President, We shift the blame of our problems on Violent Video games or any type of media we enjoy, Rather than blame the corrupt running our government and their manipulation of the masses. To Be Honest, That is One reason I completely love Charlie Sheen. Charlie Sheen portrays our people as a whole and incidentally we are completely bonkers just like him, A lot of individuals exactly resemble him but instead of admitting their problems.. They run from them. Progressing near the end of the paragraph, I myself do not want to accurately explain how fucked up we our as a people. To be fair though, Mankind will never comprehend the power we misused until we have none of it left.

I Could Go On and On about that topic, however, I am trying to catch up on a year of not blogging so the show must go on.

Rammstein..

Rammmstein..

Rammstein .. Rammstein.

I Absolutely Love Them.

For me, I would not be able to fully express how iconic and different this band is compared to all others. Honestly, If you followed them as a band for even just the recent years, automatically you would find out how much controversy surrounds this band. Always pushing the envelope of live performances and even just doing the strangest things to entertain their fans every time, It is no mystery why the Band still graces us even after 17 years of existing.
Words simply can not do them justice, I will show you exactly how freaking crazy and different this band is from a collector's edition they did..

Yes, That indeed is the Collector's edition of their most recent album "Liebe ist fur alle da". As a fun fact, The dildos are actually real replicas of the band members Dicks.
I Think you get why I claim the band is different now, I also can not wait to see them in May!



I Could Go On and On.. But I think you know where I'm going with this sentence.

Lastly, I will quickly mull over the whereabouts of my story's progress. Mid-Way through the story, I can completely say you will not predict how it ends until you read it. The story as a whole changes Genre around the middle, as if this lonely female finally decided to become a man. I have let a few individuals read the fine tuned Chapter One and decidedly I will soon let everyone read it, I will post it right here.. Yes right on this very blog. For those who do not know, The story I am writing goes by the name of; "The Moon Disciple"

Overall, I would like to Thank those who have taken time out of their schedules to read my ranting. I could have fleshed out a few more paragraph's and ideas, however It has been a long time since I have blogged and I needed a warm up first.

Adios, NM

New World Baby Order

Secretly thoughts form about having a child, I shiver at the thought. I personally don't have a problem with children, the whole "debacle" consists of the problems that surround the birth and the steps of raising a child. No.. this isn't a look forward into the near future, honestly I'm very far from having a child. Very far. I'll break down the reasons that frighten me and what can or can't possibly be done about it.

First Problem; Money
If you know me, you should know I'm not someone who always has a wad of hundreds in his pocket. I usually need to plan ahead of a paycheck in order to not screw myself over. I'm not in debt or anything,  my life financially just isn't doing me any favors. 

Now let's say I introduce a "Baby" into my current predicament.

Fuck..
I'd have to overhaul my entire life, The lifestyle I live now would not suffice for a baby. I could always take help from the Government, however not to be mean, but I'd feel ashamed of myself. I feel people should be able to provide for their family without help, unless you're a quadriplegic.. I can understand that. 
It's not impossible though, I myself am already working to overhaul my life. I'm slowly on track to becoming a law enforcement officer, which if I had that job I damn sure could provide for a child. I'm nearly positive if I learned I was having a kid in nine months, I'd already be graduating from the academy!

Problem 2: Defects
Out of the three main problems of having a child, this particular problem scares the living shit out of me. Don't get me wrong if I had a child with a defect I would cherish him or her as any child, but inside I would ponder how and why? I myself am a very healthy person, I'm just lazy and don't exercise much. So If my kid had problems I wouldn't understand why.

What can I do to prevent a defect from happening? Well nothing really, other than *not* pushing the woman bearing my child down stairs or making sure no drugs or alcohol enter her system. Everything should turn out peachy, unless I've strangely jinxed myself damning every kid I will have.. 

Problem 3: Being a Father
I personally haven't made all the best choices when it comes to school and career opportunities, yet I'm still young enough to change that. I want my kid to respect me and everyone else around him or her, I don't want a snotty kid with bad language and poor manners. 
I also wouldn't want my kid to resent me or his/her mother for whatever reason, I'd let him choose what he or she wants out of life and support them all the way through. 

What can I do to make sure this happens? 
I'd need to first off have a child with someone who stay happily married to me, second I'd need to step into high gear with becoming what I need to be now and third.. I just need to show my kid how much I love him or her no matter what and listen to their problems and needs.

Overall those are my main concerns, if you'd like to add your experience with kids or even things you're afraid of message me or leave me a comment. Let's talk about it.

If you rather not say anything at all.
Thanks for taking the time to read my rant.